So i know you aren all dieing to know my story. My life story... What has made me the way i am. What has made my life so horrible... Ok so i will tell you..
Since i was very young i was bullied. Tho everyone says "oh your bigger than them dont let them pick on you" its not as easy as it looks. Girls used to call me names. they still do today. Tho not everyone would have seen it, they pushed me to the ground sometimes. They were abusive physically and mentaly. Girls still do that to me today. And it hurts even more today then it did back then.
I also tend to get myself into abusive relationships. Tho i love my girlfriend she may not notice it but she is emotionaly abusive. She hasnt physically abused me YET. Every boy or girl i have been with has been with has hit me... not playfully hit... but really hit me.. people say its because i am ugly, because people can take advantage of me. And i actually kinda believe it.
Next my dad is in the army. which means he is gone a lot i mean A lot.
SO I KINDA FEEL LIKE HE ABANDONED ME. I love him but he is like never here. Even when he is here. its like he isnt really here.
Then i went through this spiraling depression. which i am still in reight now. I am a cutter and a burner.. I do it all.. well almost...
Welll you kinda get the jist of my story... so ya...
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Since i was very young i was bullied. Tho everyone says "oh your bigger than them dont let them pick on you" its not as easy as it looks. Girls used to call me names. they still do today. Tho not everyone would have seen it, they pushed me to the ground sometimes. They were abusive physically and mentaly. Girls still do that to me today. And it hurts even more today then it did back then.
I also tend to get myself into abusive relationships. Tho i love my girlfriend she may not notice it but she is emotionaly abusive. She hasnt physically abused me YET. Every boy or girl i have been with has been with has hit me... not playfully hit... but really hit me.. people say its because i am ugly, because people can take advantage of me. And i actually kinda believe it.
Next my dad is in the army. which means he is gone a lot i mean A lot.
SO I KINDA FEEL LIKE HE ABANDONED ME. I love him but he is like never here. Even when he is here. its like he isnt really here.
Then i went through this spiraling depression. which i am still in reight now. I am a cutter and a burner.. I do it all.. well almost...
Welll you kinda get the jist of my story... so ya...
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